love?

lately i have been struggling with the concept of love... there are people i have no doubt i love and love me in return... case in point... my gorgeous sons! :) i realize im a little biased on that opinion but im ok with that... my family and a few close friends as well... i guess i would be stumped on the romantic love part... i knew without a doubt i loved my husband/father of my children... now i struggle with recognizing it i guess... is it because i was so broken hearted im afraid to love anyone else so im fighting it... also i know i will always love steve... he is to this day my best friend and the best father any child could wish to have... will anything ever compare to what i had with him... or am i doomed to never feel complete again... sigh... just some random thoughts of a lovesick woman...

a blessing in disguise!

i have been so incredibly sick the last few days and feeling very sorry for myself... until i sit here recalling the exact events that have happened... yes i was sick and that part was no good... but the amount of love and caring that was shown to me is still a bit overwhelming to me... first off a thank you to steve the father of my two sons... who selflessly took our boys extra days, catered to my every need, and called and texted ALL day long just to be sure i didnt need anything else... my family near and far who prayed without ceasing... and all my friends who helped in any way they could... i can honestly say i saw true love personified in so many ways these last few days... thank you to all who did everything you did! and i hope you all know that i will be there for you if you ever need me too!

everyday life...

ok so here we go with this blog thing... seems easy enough... i feel far too uninteresting to have such a thing as a blog... but we'll give it a shot anyhow... :)